Despirited,yet..

Not in the best of mood recently, but luckily still ok for work. Been thinking of many things.. If you are thinking what can i be thinking of all the time, it's as follows.....
~School: to stick to the same course or is there a likelihood of changing..
~Holiday: where to go before being rooted by school
~Inspiration: who should I get that from.. a new outlook in life is required
~Trust: who are the people whom I should not trust ( I am clear who I can)
~Words:The final thing that disturbs me most is the significance of words. However , the most vivid details won't escape me. People already dead or gone scot free then I remember the details..How can words be twisted so easily? ..You said something so significant, and after a few days turned the table around and affirmed that you made the right decision. Well, after this I just found out that I became more & more *me*. The *heck* attitude is back, now even heck-er... More attitude to this person.. Sad love songs never leave me for long, for they are still ultimately my sole companion....:D
Peace Out!!

>Faceless Void<

Soon to end the 4th week of May, the fatigue of school and work seem to have kicked in. Though tired, everything seem worthwhile for the fact that every minute spent is productive.The time of the year when the wind direction change is finally here. Unable to forget the excitement I had, happy happy... Leaving the past behind is a big challenge although I can say I am doing quite well :)... Unable to forget the image of the past, unable to find the answer which is not really important now but still hope that time will assist to unveil, unable to feel complete... Moving on fine but experiencing the void.. It isnt that bad, always 2 sides of the coin to everything. Don't wanna complain, appreciate sounds better aint it?..
Peace.

*Ashamed*

We live in an atmosphere of Shame,
We are ashamed of evrything dt is Real abt Us!
Ashamed of Ourselves,relatives,Income,
of our Accents,of our Opinions,of our Experience..
Jst as V r of our Naked skins!!
Peace Out!!

Question fr D Day...

~*In D Chicken & Egg story,Which cme 1st??*~

I Blive D chicken cme 1st!! D chicken gts busy, scratchng & scratchng & strts getting sufficient wrms & strts laying Goldn Eggs!!
U'll nvr find a stressful chicken...dy r alwys too busy!!

I Wonder.

I wonder what I should do...
Where I should go...
What I want to do...
Where I want to go...
I wonder how I should do thing...
Without failing...
Without hurting others...
Without ruin things...
I wonder what my life...
Is offering me....
What options will be handed me by others..
What to do with them...
So many questions, I wonder...
Maybe I get answers one day...
Maybe I won't...
Peace.

I Want...

I want to be a good student
I want to forget the unhappy past
I want to go spotting
I want to go travelling
I want to be a better person
I want to spend time at cafes
I want to stay out of the rat race
I want to wake up late
I want to have all the time in the world for myself
I want to stay away from all dirty office politics
I want to keep mosquitos out of my room
I want to sleep more
I need to curb my temper and cut vulgarities
I need to broaden my heart and mind
I need to be a daughter as good as I can be
I need to drink more water
I need to have my own stand
I need to stay focused
I need to keep unneccesary people off my life
I need to protect myself
I need to be more independant
I need to appear more involved
I need to be happy
I need to let go of everything that hurts
I need to live my own life..
Peace.

-=|BrOkEn sOuL|=-

Sumtyms..yu needa let things happen...

weder it turns out good or bad...

don try 2 control it..& make it d way yu want..

jus let it happen,if it was meant 2 b,it will

if it wasn,den yu jus gotta accept it..

yu need 2 trust wat yu hav,& let it go..

if its yurs,it cums bak wid tym...

if it never cums bak,den it never was yurs...
have faith....n don break....

leave it 2 tym 2 fix a mistake ..

don try 2 hard in extreme situations..

it'll jus lead 2 heart breakin cnversations..

yu gotta trust wat yu hav..

accpt rejection,dont fade..

things dt r broken...rnt meant 2 b made.

Peace.

~HeArTbRokEn~

Darkness surrounds ma atmosphere ..suffocation is in d air. ..im so lost n m so ground i cnt find ma way agn... this emptiness kills frm within lost in dreams n in deep sins.. commitments i refuse 2 mke my lifes gne..n dis is d end ... i do nt realize ma worth no identification evr vil b found time iz a healer so say ol bt nothing vil evr mend dis wound when trust is lost n hpe is gne surrounded by the clouds of pain entangled in d cobweb of time where nothin stil remains d same... memory loss; interaction;extroversion intelligence bound nt 2 think elaboration..collaboration, my mind iz nw abt 2 sink ...confusion;hesitation;agitation n frustation strangeness to its height hs led 2 a spiteful separation ..retardation n irritation surround my atmosphere brought with me painful memories...I dnt knw wht 2 do ...Peace.